Confirmation Statement of Faith by Brynn F.
Hello. My name is Brynn Forstner and I am a 21 year old non-verbal autistic woman. My autism displays itself in erratic body movements, dysregulation of all my senses, and a complete inability to verbalize my thoughts and wishes. My Bible verse for this statement of faith is John 9:3 "Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him." This may seem like an unusual verse for me to choose, but I am an unusual type of confirmand. Through all of the very dark times in my life, God was with me and carried me through.
For the first fourteen years of my life, nobody knew that I had a complete brain/body disconnect. That is to say my brain wants my body to do something and my body does it's own thing. The term practitioners use is dyspraxia. My dyspraxia interferes with almost everything in life. The simplest tasks are nearly impossible unless I have the support of a trained person and the strength of God to carry me. His love is displayed whenever I master a new task.
The hardest part of being autistic is my inability to regulate my senses and sometimes my emotions. Can you imagine the sound of screetching in your head whenever you go to an unfamiliar place? Or the feeling of panic when you need to move your body to a new location? Do you know what it is like to want to chew off your own finger rather than wear a bandage? God has blessed me with autistic friends across the country and also the ability to problem solve these issues with them. Together we all support each other and brainstorm solutions via Zoom. None of this would be doable if my mom hadn't learned the miracle that makes it possible for me to write this statement.
It was assumed I was intellectually disabled because of my erratic body movements and inability to produce meaningful vocalizations. I was completely frustrated, depressed, and wanted to give up. For years I prayed for a miracle and at age fourteen the miracle happened. My mom went to a R.P.M. (Rapid Prompting Method) workshop and learned I was intellectually intact even though I appeared intellectually disabled. She learned how to teach me age appropriate material and, most importantly, how to communicate using a letterboard. Can you imagine the hope God gifted me that day? The God of creation and the heaven and the earth answered my prayers and showed me I have a purpose on this earth. His love carried me through the darkest days so I could glorify His name and show others His love.
God has given me the erratic body and the intelligent mind to share His good news and the beauty of His plan for me. Displayed in my autism are His works, His love, and His perfect plan for my life. Because of His miracle that allows me to share my faith with everyone, using a letterboard, my life has purpose and meaning. I am thankful for God's blessings on my life. Thank you for your time and this opportunity to share my statement of faith.
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